*Blogger knows how to tick me off...all my layout-efforts have proven to be useless again...as soon as i click publish all the words space out exactly as they please to..*
I feel like a mug of tea…
I feel like a cracker in a packet…
Waiting; watching the world go by.
I feel like a sprinkle of seasoning…
Used and put back on the shelf.
Like an item cooking, boiling, frying.
I’ve been through all the phases and now on stand by
Set aside but not wavering…
Resting but alive; awake; alert.
I’m on the look out; on my guard
For some sort of direction…
A course; a road; a track…
Unbroken; undeviating; uninterrupted.
I’m not sure…
Sometimes I feel more alone, wondering and misunderstood
everyone seems to care…
until they’re just looking in
like the rest of the world.
Leaving me feeling like I’m the
Constantly looking out;
Trying to love and reach out.
Like I’m the only one putting effort into things…
Like I’m the one and only UNDERDOG ….all the time.
Brought up in it...People
Ever seen what
It’s like, what
I’m like, who
Not worth explaining coz I’ll be disappointed.
No one can get me,
That’s the feeling…
That I’m alone with You always and forever.
I think I’d be fine…
Knowing I had to get through simply
With You and with none other
But they think they understand….
They think they know and love
But I don’t feel loved…
They think they have me all figured out
But I’m just giving them bad ideas,
Twisted ideas…that are not me.
I say something and they take it any way they like
Forming their own picture of me…
but no one really Wants to know the real me…
No one does.
And it’s also painful that only here and now
Can I confess that it is.
So many warped ideas; so many people thinking they know…
That I don’t feel I’ll ever manage to make that much effort to untangle them all now
And make them straight again.
I’ll go to sleep. They’ll go to sleep.
We’ll go to sleep,
Each thinking the other is fine.
But nobody knows
And nobody wants to.
It’s scary but I believe it…
And nobody wants to.
Everyone’s perfectly fine living their life
WITHOUT me as an extra burden.
They try; they care…
But no one gets far enough…
No one gets to me…
So I blame myself for being too difficult
to understand…and maybe I just am –
A hard nut to crack
A hard shell to break
But Lord You know I try…
You know I long for that someone to manage
maybe just to make it
Possible to succeed at reaching me.
I’m sorry but I’m sick of all the unreturned effort I put into friendships
And I don’t think I have it in me
To go on.
So I’ll praise You for being strong
In my weakness.
For being lifted up day after day
As tears fall.
For remaining worthy and holy
As I break and fold.
For being IN the gentle storms That bring a sense of refreshment and new beauty.
For being in those storms where Helplessness crashes in the thunder,
and loneliness lights up the night in the lightning.
For being in those storms and rains of desperation, despair and anguish.
That ray of hope
That trickling tear down a cheek
That rain drop gently dripping down a surface
With a sense of
And could it be?
There’s a peace the world cannot give
And how well I know it.
The first drop…
Perhaps that takes the longest, hardest and most effort to fall…
Just till it shows the other drops what to do…
It’s exposed; falling helplessly…
Until they all are…
Falling enthusiastically with life and purpose.
And a new dawn
After stings of cold wing
Will come warmth seeping in
I’m waiting here to watch the rain…
Lord the skies are your canvas
Where You paint Your love story to me
Day after day, view after view.
Your hand crafts night after night,
Sunrise after sunrise, cloud after star
After moon after raindrop and lightning bolt.
(Do you hear?)
With conviction I’ll put my pencil down tonight…
To a God who’s saying
“It’s all in my hands.
I am Your provider.”
And I’ll sleep with the same peace that only my God can give.
Share this I pray Lord, with humanity –
Ok so the monkey pictures quite funny :p but i remembered this song and liked it again nd thought i should post. :)