If I stand here lifting empty hands...

"I'm so grateful that the thing i can't escape is You!"
=) Great lyric...!

Why is it whenever i feel like thinking, so many things come up..studies, friends, outings...So many things start coming between me and God, and me and sorting out my own head...I wondered a couple of weeks ago...xD..nd i can't say i've found the answer ( u knw wat?..this time i'm not even goin to apologize for the random unorganised-ness of my blog, i'm just going to enjoy it..=) )

Misunderstood: lack of someone who understands; incorrectly interpretted.
"There is no worse lie than a truth misunderstood by those who hear it."
Understood: to perceive and comprehend the nature and significance/ to know thoroughly by close contact and long experience with..

I go to God every night to find peace of mind in the fact that someone out there understands me...knows me because of "close contact" with me...WoW!
Wow because the person who knows me inside out is the King of the Universe...and Almighty God! I'm blessed =)
This world's not about me or myself being understood..it's about giving glory to Him whether i'm understood or not...i want to make Him understood with my life, actions and words!
He defines me; He gives me worth; He restores me.

"In this world you will have trouble but take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33

Last point...which i learnt from Facebook.
Everyone changes their status in preparation for a massive night ahead...And so I'm going to join them...
in being ready for a huge night ahead of me...a night where God is going to do things to blow my mind away! This is His night and I know Hiw plans are beyond imagination..(even if we have to learn about the fruit in the long long long run)

My heart's empty and thristing
My soul is tired and expectant

Perhaps this is my time in between
but He's here with me and
Here it is He wants me to be...
I feel like an athlete warming up...
Itching to start my sprint
And reach the goal ahead of me!

I don't have to agree with the world...and I was never meant to. My actions should stand out to be full of love and humility...but how can I ever be all that?
How can i enter the presence of God? How can i ask Him to fill me? I am 100% not worthy..Yet...the same power that conquered the grave is living in me and tonight...
the love that rescued the earth will come to live in me again.....


=) *smiley-sigh*

If ne one has anymore ideas...

Had to list all my distractions of the morning xD..enjoy

- read all my 16th birthday cards and they made me cry

- looked through all my old photo albums and they made me laugh

- Couldn't get further than one face on a rubix cube!

- tried on all my dresses and liked none

- actually watched lanf's videos! *now dats sad!*

-entertained myself by reading the ingredients of a face cream

- fixed the backboard of my bed

-ate rucola for the first time..*im not sure if it was bleh or not*

hah i wonder what my aftrenoon and night of studying will look like at this rate...

If mina doesn't have copyright.. xD

i was thinking of doing a mina-style blog...promising to get back to real, me-style bloggin in 2 weeks time..so keep your eyes peeled! xD
woke up
cereal
call form achie
ran up the hill
double bio
happybday bev
busybee
long walk to uni
studied
walked home for lunch
back to uni
studied some more
walked to jers car
drove to jones
waited in car to avoid being too early or too late *lol* xD
2 hrs of jones private lessons
home
couscous
back to my study
attempting to study but being distracted by blogging...
hey presto that was my day!! xD twas a gd one while it lasted =P
blessings to u all..2 weeeks aaaaaaaaaaaa gleee

p.s. i hav finished this day with a less pencil and ruler xD

If i felt like..

I thought i felt like bloggin... i guess i'm wrong xD

If the world could hear The Crisis...

I'm not sure why but this piece of music makes me think...

If all days could be so pensive I'd write a book...xD

So Achie asked me to blog somewhere, sometime today..and I guess i'm easily influenced and couldn't resist blogging after such a pensive day.
However it's not gonna be a typical me blog..you see my thoughts are still too unorganised to add up to a decent blog...but i will just leave you with a few of the things that were on my mind today...and i might elaborate on these topics some other time.

First of all something i wrote a few days ago which you can all interpret for yourselves because i don't think i should explain it just yet:

"It took a stupid incident like that to make me realize my Holy Lord and God still lives and still reigns over this world that seems lost... and over my life that seems aimless.
It took a hurt to draw me back closer; a misunderstanding to make me dive deeper into knowledge, truth and understanding. "


Secondly....today i was searchin for song-writing schools and one of the questions this certain school asked their musicians was.."What is your favourite word?"...nd i thought about it and have decided mine is....*drumroll*

EXUBERANT
Dictionary: ex•u•ber•ant

1. Full of unrestrained enthusiasm or joy.
2. Lavish; extravagant.
3. Extreme in degree, size, or extent.
4. Growing, producing, or produced abundantly; plentiful: “Threads of her exuberant hair showed up at the bottom of the sink” (Anne Tyler). See synonyms at profuse.

Again..this is to be further explained another time xD....coz this leads to my third trail of thought of the day....I want to go to a music school..take a gap year perhaps...go to come song-writing school..or sumting of the sort...do something out of the ordinary u knw?...But after thinking about it...I concluded if God wants me to go to uni then i'll go..and if i'm meant to take a gap year or not go to uni at all...then let that happen! =)

And finally xD
Pain?...why aren’t we grateful for it?...Why don’t we expect to feel it?

Those were Bettina's thoughts of the day...enjoy thinking about them!
This song's actually rly good if you'd care to give it a listen =)...it's God-centered...lately all the songs are "ME/I" centered..and im sick of them..
(hah another thought and i wasn't even aware of it)



Blessings!